I think what’s been bothering me lately is that I feel very much unlike my normal self. Normally I exercise. Since getting the no-go on running from my doctor around week 20, I’ve been exercising vey little. Today I took Nieve for a walk, but I came home after about 10 minutes because I was feeling tired, lazy, and bored. I could have walked her for a lot longer, my original intention had been at least 20 minutes, but I just didn’t want to.
I’m used to being able to come home and work on grading for 3-4 hours. It helps free up the weekend a little and helps keep me from getting far behind. Since about November, some nights it’s all I can do to plan for the next day. I bring stuff home with the intention of working on it, and it just doesn’t happen.
I suppose this is good practice for the many ways that life will change once the babies are born. Who has time to work out with two newborns, right? But feeling so unlike myself makes pregnancy, which is tough enough on its own, even tougher. I wonder if I’ll ever feel like myself again.